Life Ain't Always Beautiful
by Gary Allan
Life ain't always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down, it can break your heart
Life ain't always beautiful
You think you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day
But the struggles makes you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has its own way of takin' it sweet time
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No,life ain't always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life ain't always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride
Life ain't always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin' all these lonely miles
And I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream, but life don't work that way
But the struggles makes me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has its own way of takin' its sweet time
No, life ain't always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine
Hey, life ain't always beautiful
But its a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride
It has been a very long time since I have written a personal post. So, if you would indulge me for a moment. This time of year, we tend to look back and see how many things have changed in the last twelve months. The good times that we never thought would come. The bad times thought would never end. The obstacles that came our way and conquered or let conquer us. It is a time that we can look at where we are now and say look how far I have come or we say..I have got to do better. One thing is for certain, life is going to keep changing. Nothing ever stays the same. People come and people go...There are no guarantees in life. I have learned that people both come and go from your life when it is time and you may not know the reason until later.We can plan our life out and in an instant things change. Our reactions to them determine if we fail or succeed. I have learned that I can have a certain idea in my head of how life is going to go or I get comfortable with the way my life is and life has a way of either quietly knocking on the door or slapping me upside the head and saying "Hello friend, you were getting complacent, it was time for me to make a change." I have learned that life very rarely goes as planned or expected but that it turns out the way it is supposed to.
As many of you know, my brother has been in legal trouble. Things could have gone better, things definitely could have gone worse. I had no control over that situation but I did have control over how I let it effect me. I found out a few months ago that we were expecting our 5th child. SURPRISE to us. This, along with many other things have proven to me that although we think that we are in control of our lives, there are quite a few things that we cannot control. Oh, sure, we can control our diet, our exercise program and things like that but the BIG things...we usually have to sit in the passengers seat and ride out the storm. Does this mean that we shouldn't make an effort to better ourselves and progress forward? No. It simply means that we must prepare ourselves spiritually or mentally to face hard times. The death of a loved one, the loss of a job, the failure of a marriage. The hard times that always happen to other people will eventually befall us. Life is very rarely fair. If we are prepared or as prepared as we can be, then the punches that life throws at us won't knock us out, they may knock us down but we can always get back up. That my friend is the key to life,it is not many times you get knocked down but how many times you get back up. Remember, it is alright to get knocked down as long as you get back up. If you get knocked down 7 times you had better get up 8. The more we learn to roll with the punches, the more often we will be able to pick ourselves back up, dust ourselves off and move on with our lives.
Life is uncertain and there are many times in my life that I wonder what if I would have made this decision instead of THAT decision? I may be in a totally different place. But, regret is a wasted emotion. Had I changed one small thing, would I be as blessed as I am today? Of course there are a few things that I wish I could have changed..most of those being my reactions to things that happened. The way I treated others, the way I reacted to the way I felt I was being treated. The loss of valued friendships and loved ones. Life is always changing and evolving the way it is supposed to. You cannot hang on to the past, you must let it go and move forward. I look back now at the time I spent worrying, wondering, yearning to be a mother. I couldn't for the life of me figure out why for seven years my husband and I just couldn't conceive and there were women in the world that didn't want chidren or couldn't take care of them. It baffled me. The only "regret" if you can call it that, is that I wish I would have spent more time enjoying being a couple. The ironic thing is that I am still doing that today..with my children. Life goes way too fast and you can't stop the hands of time my friends.
Why re-evaluate your life one day out of 365 and vow to make changes? New Years has always been sort of silly to me. I think life is better served, if you evaluate your life on a regular basis. Look at where you, decide where you want to be and begin moving forward. If I would have set my goals for the year on January 1st..they would have already been out the window. I didn't plan on being pregnant again or reconnecting with lost friends but I am truly blessed with both. I do have a few consistent goals however. To be a more patient, understanding and loving mother to my children. To be the mother that they deserve. To be a better wife to my husband. To be a better sister, friend, neighbor. to be of value to those around me. I need to teach my children this. If I don't then who will? Who will teach them that life isn't always fair, that sometimes you fall down, sometimes you don't get what you want..when you want it? Who is going to teach them that patience always pays off and life will go on and it will be beautiful but it isn't always easy but you can NEVER give up? As a parent that is my job and I hope I can succeed.
The blessings in my life now are abundant.They have always been abundant and sometimes it has taken me awhile to recognize them. I feel so blessed to have the life that I have..and what I have is a perfectly, imperfect life and that is what makes this such a beautiful ride.